Convert and I talked over the possibility of me going to school, so that I could get a higher paying job. I was real happy for an opportunity to go. I always wanted to train to be a nurse. I also wanted to be able to financially take care of my children, just in case Convert quit a job. Well, the thought was put on the back burner for awhile.
Shortly after we all moved to a townhouse, Convert found another job, and I got transfered to a fast food restaurant closer to where we lived. Convert worked days and I worked afternoons. Things settled a bit. The two older children were in elementary school by this time, and the baby stayed home with me during the day.
The subject of me going to school came up again. I found a technical institute that was affordable. The school offered education for practical nursing. I enrolled, and started shortly after I got accepted. I attended school during the day, and in the evenings I worked. The baby came with me and stayed at a daycare center near the school.
The schedule was hard, the classes were easy, and I still longed to be with my children. I could have chosen to stay at home, and not work or go to school, but I needed to gain some kind of stability for my kids. As much as I hated being away from them, I was determined to have the ability to take care of them, in case I needed to.
Convert was still working, but I questioned his faithfulness to me and to our marriage. He remained distant, and he got involved with other people. I never knew what he was doing. He didn't want to be close.
I didn't go to church, due to the fact that I was burning the candle at both ends. I needed to have as much time at home as I possibly could. Between going to school full time and working full time, I needed to relax and enjoy my kids as much as possible.
School was about over, and I could see light at the end of the tunnel. Then Convert came to me one day and told me that I had to quit school. He went on to inform me that if I didn't stop attending school, he would file for divorce. He further told me that by getting a divorce, he would be able to prove to me that I couldn't live without him. I had an ultimatum. Quit school and be in constant worry about my children's survival, or get a divorce and finish school. This is the same man that sold his TV when we were dating so I could go to college.


Obi-Dave Kenobi April 20, 2007 at 10:19 PM  

This guy is getting weirder and weirder...or, maybe it would be more fair to say his behavior was getting weirder and weirder. I'm dyin' to hear what happens next.

And, for the record, him asking you to quit school was nothing more than a manipulation tactic to maintain control of you. That was sick.

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I spent a lot of time deciding if I should write this blog or not. I'm not a great writer and I'm not going to pretend to be. I need to share what I have learned and I might not make some people happy with what I am saying. This blog is a way for me to release the thoughts and feelings that come with knowing I grew up in the wrong religion. A healing process if you will.

How To Read This Blog

Please start with the month of February 2007 and read backwards. This is the most effective way to understand, in order, why I say what I do.

Handmaidens Creed

1.I believe in God the Father, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit as one God without beginning or end.
2.I believe the Bible to be the Holy Inspired word of God with full truth and righteousness. No other writing is.
3.I believe that the work of the Lord comes first. Before any temporal thing or person.
4.I believe that grace is a gift and Christ gives that gift freely to all who believe.
5.I believe that the beauty of a woman is contained inside of her and not by what she looks like on the outside.
6.I believe that marriage is sacred and represents the Godhead on earth; two are one just as three are one.
7.I believe that love is more powerful than any other power. Remember, God is love.
8.I believe that tithing is not a part of God's new covenant, free will offerings are. And that doesn't mean just money.
9.I believe that the Aaronic, Levitical, and Melchizedek priesthoods are abolished and Christs Holy Priesthood whom Christ is the "Great High Priest" is eternal.
10.I believe that every believer is a priest in the "Priesthood of Believers".
11.I believe that when two are one, nobody is to separate the one.
12.I believe that Christ is the only way to heaven.
13.I believe that our bodies are temples, not man made buildings.
14.I believe that liars make fools out of others and the liar hates the fool.
15.I believe that all believers are in authority to preach the gospel.
16.I believe that the word 'organization' to describe Christs body is evil and has no place with God.
17.I believe the Americas are not the land of Zion and Christ will return to His origonal land-Israel in the Middle East.
18.I believe that God has set out correct ways of worshiping Him, not man.
19.I believe in holding to the truths of the Bible and not mans understanding of it.
20.I believe that the world is full of evil and Satan can easily gain control over the minds of those who do not profess Christ of the Bible to be their only Messiah.
21.I believe that Saints are those who know the real Savior, Jesus Christ, of whom the Bible speaks of; not the jesus of a cult.