Insight

At this particular time, I need to stop and reflect back to an earlier time in my youth, concerning my parental teaching. I never questioned the authority that my dad claims to have. I never went against the law of the church or the house. I spent many nights, as a teen, wondering why I couldn't speak my mind, question whatever I was told to do, or give my personal opinion on something. I couldn't refuse to do duties in the church, if I thought it didn't make sense. I was not supposed to question the reasons behind the churches doctrine. I faithfully stood by the teachings of Joseph Smith, and the authority that he gave men, in the name of God. I believed in the authority that my dad claims to have in order for me to get to heaven. This is all about the Priesthood in the Mormon church.
I grew up to obey all that I was told to do. I was severely disciplined, if I didn't. On one occasion, my dad told me to, "bend over and bear your butt, so I can spank it". This was at the age of sixteen, which I thought was very wrong and inappropriate for that age. [He wanted to do this for a totally ridiculous reason.] This time, I refused and was afraid of what he might do. I was fearful of the church authority "my dad", and didn't dare to go against anything he said. My dad didn't go any further on the matter.
I learned to have fearful respect for anyone who held the Mormon priesthood. This includes Convert, in spite of his strange behavior. I did what I did, up to this point in my marriage, because of my belief in the teachings that were instilled in me from birth.