Seeking Truth

I asked a new friend, of whom I've never met, what to put on my blog. The advise I got was to always encourage people, Mormon and non-Mormon, to seek the truth. This new found friend came about from a soured gathering of those who desired to know the truth about Mormonism. The the initial intent of the group was a support group for former Mormons . What ended up as a bitter parting of ways, gave birth to a relationship via surrogate.
In the dense fog that had filtered into the minds of those at the dinner of truth seekers, came the adversary that sought out to confound and confuse all those there. The very few who did not let the cloud of deceit penetrate their minds, became acutely aware of the danger lurking about. The one who took heed of the invisible red flags of warning, left after the third flag waved viciously in full view. Several kind words were exchanged between us, and a new hope of a like-minded kinship had been conceived. (I stayed because I needed my desert dish back.)
This new precious relationship was founded on a single desire. The need for truth. Truth opens many doors that leads to endless possibilities. The truth is as delicate as a new babe in its mothers arms. I take care of it, and it, in turn, takes care of me. Now I have a new friend, and the surrogate, is also a part of that new friendship.
Mormonism took away so much of my life, and now the truth is progressively bringing it back. I ask all who are seeking truth to press ahead and search, dig, wonder, ask, and above all else, don't stop. Death is the only thing that can stop you. Your own self determination and hunger can fuel you ahead. I encourage you to always seek for the truth. But, please, don't take someone else's word for truth. Find out for yourself.

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A Special Report From Ed Decker

Special Report

January 11, 2010

Because of the exceptional amount of press Senate Majority Leader Harry Reid is receiving about his comments regarding President Obama's light negro skin and dialect and its effect in the election process


the press avoiding any discussion about why Harry Reid has strong, special feelings about the African American Race.. That it is a cursed race according to his religious beliefs

I felt it important to get this information out to you immediately.

Please pass it on to your owen contact lists

Ed Decker

Senate Majority Leader Harry Reid Negro Comment

is from his Mormon doctrine that says

Negro race comes from the curse of Cain.

FOR NEARLY 140 YEARS, Mormonism (the "Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints") has taught that the black people are "inferior" and are "cursed" by God. The Mormon leaders who have taught these things in the name of Christianity are revered as "prophets, seers and revelators" by their Church, and their plain words about these cruel, unscriptural teachings remain for the world to judge.

However, in June, 1978, Mormon leaders attempted to erase over a century of outside resentment with the announcement that "worthy" black persons could receive privileges and secret initiations which had always been denied them in Mormonism. This strange, unexpected turnabout came as Mormon leaders were planning to initiate their final drive to send their "missionaries" into the remaining lands of the world where Mormonism has been most resisted—particularly Africa.

Surely, this cannot be mere coincidence. Nevertheless, the firm Mormon teaching that a whole race of people are "cursed with a black skin" for sins committed by them before they were born remains to this very day, no announcement or "revelation" has removed it.

The following quotations, taken from authoritative doctrinal writings and speeches by Mormon Prophets (their supreme earthly leaders) and Apostles, should serve as a sobering warning of the true nature of Mormonism. It is a religion which curses an entire people one day, and offers them greater privileges" the next.


(Second Prophet and President of the Mormon Church)

"I have never yet preached a sermon and sent it out to the Children of men, that they may not call scripture!" Journal of Discourses, Volume 13, page 95.

"You see some classes of the human family that are black, uncouth, uncomely, disagreeable, sad, low in their habits, wild, ad seemingly without the blessings of the intelligence that is generally bestowed upon mankind. The first man that committed the odious crime of killing one of his brethren will be cursed the longest of any one of the children of Adam. Cain slew his brother. Cain might have been killed, and that would have put termination to that line of human beings. This was not to be and the Lord put a mark on him, which is the flat nose and black skin. Trace mankind down to after the flood, and then other curse is pronounced upon the same race - that they would be the "servant of servants;" and they will be, until that curse is removed; and the Abolitionists cannot help it, nor in the least alter that decree." Journal of Discourses, Volume 7, pages 290 291

"In our first settlement in Missouri, it was said by our enemies that we intended to tamper with the slaves, not that we had any idea of the kind, for such a thing never entered our minds. We knew that the children of Ham were to be the "servant of servants," and no power under heaven could hinder it, so long as the Lord would permit them to welter under the curse and those were known to be our religious views concerning them." Journal of Discourses, Volume 2, page 172.

"Shall I tell you the law of God in regard to the African race? If the white man who belongs to the chosen seed mixes his blood with the seed of Cain, the penalty, under the law of God, is death on the spot. This will always be so." Journal of Discourses, Volume 10, page 110.


(First Prophet and President and Founder of the Mormon Church)

"Had I anything to do with the negro , I would confine them by strict law to their own species and put them on a national equalization.'' History of the Church, Volume 5, pages 218 - 219.


(of the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles of the Mormon Church)

"Those who were less valiant in the pre-existence and who thereby had certain spiritual restrictions imposed upon them during mortality are known to us as the negroes. Such spirits are sent to earth through the lineage of Cain, the mark put upon him for his rebellion against Cod and his murder of Abel being a black skin.... Noah's son Ham married Egyptus, a descendant of Cain, thus preserving the negro lineage through the flood....The negroes are not equal with other races when the receipt of certain spiritual blessings are concerned, particularly the priesthood and the temple blessings that flow therefrom, but this inequality is not of man's origin. It is the Lord's doing, based on His eternal laws of justice, and grows out of the lack of spiritual valiance of those concerned in their first estate." Mormon Doctrine, 10th printing, pages 527-528.

"Racial degeneration, resulting In differences In appearance and spiritual aptitude, has arisen since the fall. We know the circumstances under which the posterity of Cain (and later of Ham) were cursed with what we call negroid racial characteristics." Mormon Doctrine, page 616.

"Though he was a rebel and an associate of Lucifer in the preexistence, and though he was a liar from the beginning whose name was Perdition, Cain managed to attain the privilege of mortal birth....As a result of his rebellion, Cain was cursed with a dark skin; he became the father of the negroes, and those spirits who are not worthy to receive the priesthood are born through his lineage. He became the first mortal to be cursed as a son of perdition." Mormon Doctrine, page 109.

"Through Ham (a name meaning black) "the blood of the Canaanites was preserved" through the flood, he having married Egyptus, a descendant of Cain....Negroes are thus descendants of Ham, who himself also was cursed apparently for marrying into the forbidden lineage." Mormon Doctrine, page 343.

" a broad general sense, caste systems have their root and origin in the gospel itself, and when they operate according to the divine decree, the resultant restrictions and segregation are right and proper and have the approval of the Lord. To illustrate: Cain Ham, and the whole negro race have _ cursed with a black skin, the mark of Cain, so they can be identified as a caste apart, a people with whom the other descendants of Adam should not intermarry." Mormon Doctrine, page 114.


(of the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles of the Mormon Church)

"Who placed the Negroes originally in darkest Africa? Was it some man, or was it God? And when He placed them there, He segregated them.... The Lord segregated the people both as to blood and place of residence. At least in the cases of the Lamanites and the negroes we have the definite word of the Lord Himself that He placed a dark skin upon them as a curse - as a punishment and as a sign to all others. He forbade intermarriage with them under threat of extension of the curse

"....And He certainly segregated the descendants of Cain when He cursed the Negro as to the Priesthood, and drew an absolute line. You may even say He dropped an Iron curtain there. The Negro was cursed as to the Priesthood, and therefore, was cursed as to the blessings of the Priesthood. Certainly God made a segregation there.

"Think of the Negro, cursed as to the Priesthood. Are we prejudiced against him? Unjustly, sometimes we are accused of having such a prejudice. But what does the mercy of God have for him? This Negro, who, in the pre-existence lived the type of life which justified the Lord in sending him to the earth in the lineage of Cain with a black skin, and possibly being born in darkest Africa , if that Negro is willing when he hears the gospel to accept it, he may have many of the blessings of the gospel. In spite of all he did in the pre-existent life, the Lord is willing, if the Negro accepts the gospel with real, sincere faith, and is really converted, to give him the blessings of baptism and the gift of the Holy Ghost....

"If I were to marry a Negro woman and have children by her, my children would all be cursed as to the priesthood. Do I want my children cursed as to the priesthood? If there is one drop of negro blood in my children, as I have read to you, they receive the curse, There isn't any argument, therefore, as to intermarriage with the Negro, is there? There are 50 million Negroes in the United States. If they were to achieve complete absorption with the white race, think what that would do. With 50 million Negroes inter-married with us, where would the priesthood be? Who could hold it, in all America? Think what that would do to the work of the Church!....

"Now we are generous with the Negro. We are willing that the Negro have the highest kind of education. I would be willing to let every Negro drive a Cadillac if they could afford it. I would be willing that they have all the advantages they can get out of life in the world. But let them enjoy these things among themselves. I think the Lord segregated the Negro and who is man to change that segregation?" Race Problems - as They Affect The Church (address given at Brigham Young Univers


(Tenth Prophet and President of the Mormon Church)

"I would not want you to believe that we bear any animosity toward the Negro. "Darkies" are wonderful people, and they have their place in our church." Look magazine, October 22, 1963, page 79.

"There is a reason why one man is born black and with other disadvantages, while another is born white with great advantage. The reason is that we once had an estate before we came here, and were obedient, more or less, to the laws that were given us there. Those who were faithful in all things there received greater blessings here, and those who were not faithful received less.... There were no neutrals in the war in heaven. All took sides either with Christ or with Satan. Every man had his agency there, and men receive rewards here based upon their actions there, just as they will receive rewards hereafter for deeds done in the body. The Negro, evidently, is receiving the reward he merits." Doctrines of Salvation, Volume 1, pages 66-67.

"President Brigham Young, answering a question put to him by Elder Lorenzo D. Young in a meeting held December 25 , 1869, in Salt Lake City, said that Joseph Smith had declared that the Negroes were not neutral in heaven, for all the spirits took sides, but the posterity of Cain are black because he (Cain) committed murder." The Way to Perfection, pages 105-106.

"That negro race, for instance, have been placed under restrictions because of their attitude in the world of spirits, few will doubt. It cannot be looked upon as just that they should be deprived of the power of the Priesthood without it being a punishment for some act, or acts, performed before they were born." The Way to Perfection, page 43.

"Not only was Cain called upon to suffer, but because of his wickedness he became the father of an inferior race. A curse placed upon him and that curse has been continued through his lineage and must do so while time endures. Millions of souls have come into this world cursed with a black skin and have been denied the privilege of Priesthood and the fullness of the blessings of the Gospel. These are the descendants of Cain. Moreover, they have been made to feel their inferiority and have been separated from the rest of mankind from the beginning.... we will also hope that blessings may eventually be given to our negro brethren, for they are our brethren—children of God—not withstanding their black covering emblematical of eternal darkness. " The Way to Perfection, pages 101-102.

"Ham, through Egyptus, continued the curse which was placed upon the seed of Cain. Because of that curse this dark race was separated and isolated from all the rest of Adam's posterity before the flood, and since that time the same condition has continued, and they have been 'despised among all people.' This doctrine did not originate with President Brigham Young but was taught by the Prophet Joseph Smith .... we all know it is due to his teachings that the negro today is barred from the Priesthood."

The Way to Perfection, pages 110-111.


(Third Prophet and President of the Mormon Church)

" . . . after the flood we are told that the curse that had been pronounced upon Cain was continued through Ham's wife, as he had married a wife of that seed. And why did it pass through the flood? Because it was necessary that the devil should have a representation a upon a the earth as well as God;.... " Journal of Discourses, Volume 22, page 304.

"When he (Satan) destroyed the inhabitants of the antediluvian worlds, he suffered a descendant of Cain to come through the flood in order that he might be properly represented upon the earth." Journal of Discourses, Volume 23, page 336


(of the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles of the Mormon Church)

" .... among the Saints (i.e., Mormons] is the most likely place for these [pre-existent) spirits to take their tabernacles, through a just and righteous parentage....The Lord has not kept them in store for five or six thousand years past, and kept them waiting for their bodies all this time to send them among the Hottentots, the African Negroes, the idolatrous Hindoos, or any other of the fallen nations of the earth. They are not kept in reserve in order to come forth to receive such a degraded parentage upon the earth; no, the Lord is not such a being." Journal of Discourses, Volume 1, page 63.

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I know that this post is long, please bear with me and follow through the whole post. It is very important that I give you a full explanation so you can fully understand the whole meaning behind--The Apron.

There is a certain feel that comes from the fabric of silk. It's soft, smooth, and has a unique texture all of its own. It is used in several luxurious garments worn by men and women alike. One such garment shared by both sexes in the Mormon temple, and that is the apron they wear. It is the smaller piece of garb that is laid in front of the lower stomach and hangs down far enough to cover the sexual necessities of male and female both. It is held up with a waist tie and only covers the front area of the body. The color is always green and is adorned with the representation of fig leaves.
This innocent piece of material worn in this fashion by the elite of Mormon followers, yet carries grave meaning of Satanic symbolism. The origins of this apron is carried on today deep within the walls of the Mormon temples, right to the very bowels of Lucifer himself.
Each person, male and female, don this apron to themselves at a certain point of the temple ceremony, and is worn through the entire stay at the temple. The representation of this apron, to the patron at the temple of choice, is given during the beginning of the ceremony. During the play (or movie), the story is told where Adam and Eve are made aware of their naked bodies by eating the fruit from the tree of good and evil.......
"After the actors in the film or live performance have eaten the fruit and then hear "Father" (the LDS god) coming back down into the garden, Lucifer advises them, "See, you are naked. Take some fig leaves and make you aprons. Father will see your nakedness. Quick! Hide!" (Sackett, p.28).
Adam responds by agreeing with Lucifer and saying, "Come, let us hide." Immediately after this the narrative stops, and all temple patrons are advised to put on their aprons. This is the first item of ceremonial clothing put on in the endowment (other than the temple garment, which was added earlier in the initiatory work).
This apron is later removed and placed over the robes of the holy priesthood, which are pure white (Scakett, p.37). It remains a striking, key feature of the priesthood robes worn by either men or women in the temple. Faithful temple Mormons are also buried in their robes, including the apron." (Decker's Complete Handbook on Mormonism, Ed Decker, 1995, Harvest House Publishers, Eugene, Oregon, pg. 53)
"We then hear Adam ask a somewhat odd, out-of-context question: "What is that apron you have on?" Lucifer replies, "It is an emblem of my power and priesthoods." In case anybody missed this assertion, Adam inquires incredulously: "Priesthoods?" Lucifer nods with pontifical finality. "Yes, priesthoods!" Then, without any further discussion of his apron, Lucifer commands Adam and Eve to put on their aprons. At this moment the temple initiates are instructed to put on their own aprons. So now we are all decked out in what has just been described as the symbol of Satan's power and priesthoods! Mormons wear the apron for the rest of the temple ceremony; they are, in fact, buried in full temple clothing, including the Luciferian apron." (Mormonism's Temple of Doom, Schnoebelen & Spencer, Through the Maze, Boise, Idaho, 1987, pgs.20-21)
"In the endowment, Adam challenges Lucifer as to the nature of the apron he is wearing. Lucifer replies arrogantly that it is the "symbol of my power and Priesthoods." This is key, because LDS theology knows of only two priesthoods, the Aaronic priesthood and the Melchizedek. Yet Lucifer is identifying these priesthoods as his. Adam seems as puzzled as the temple patrons are and asks, "Priesthoods?"
Lucifer simply replies with enigmatic finality: "Yes, Priesthoods," as if that answered all questions (Sackett, p.28). Of course, all it does is raise serious questions. If Lucifer is fallen, what is he doing with an emblem of the priesthood? Supposedly, in LDS doctrine, no unrighteous person can hold the priesthood (Doctrine and Covenants 121:34-37), and yet here it seems that the most unrighteous one of all is holding it. Additionally, no one can hold the priesthood without a physical tabernacle (body), yet Lucifer has been eternally denied a tabernacle of flesh. Why does the Lord allow him to wear an apron, which is the symbol of his priesthoods? These are not easy questions for the temple patron to answer.
Within seconds of this dialogue, temple patrons are asked to put on aprons which are identical to Lucifer's except for color and to continue to wear them as part of their "garments of the holy priesthood." It is no wonder some temple patrons come away a bit uneasy with the entire episode.
Additionally, it is undeniable that this kind of apron has a long and very dubious history as a central artifact in Freemasonry, ceremonial magic, and occultism (Schnoebelen & Spencer, 1987, pp. 20-23). This is just one more indication of the deceptive and occult roots of the supposedly sacred LDS temple ceremonies." (Decker, 1995, pgs. 53-54)
"The association of the apron with Lucifer and his power goes back centuries in Wicca and occultism. While it is common knowledge that Masons wear aprons, less understood is the fact that most occult and Luceferian lodges wear then as well. Why? Because in magick, the apron is a symbol of magickal energy or planetary (astrological) force. It is the badge of rank for the third degree; and represents (when green) the priestly office of Lucifer. It is the magickal "tool" of that degree.
In this third degree of Wicca, the apron serves a practical, magickal purpose. In this degree, through a bizarre ceremony called the Great Rite, one is initiated into the principles of sex magick (tantra yoga). The apron is often used during this sort of ritual to help contain and channel sexual energy. This is why it covers the genital area.....
Additionally, just as the stole is the emblem of authority in the Catholic Priesthood, so the green apron is the emblem of Lucifer's authority. In every Satanic group I knew of, the hierophant (High Priest) always wore a green apron, usually of the finest silk or satin.
Why green? I know that most people's ideas of Satanic rites (which come from garish movies) are that everyone wears black or red (or nothing). This is only partially true. The lower levels wear black, the magi wear scarlet, and the magisters wear white, as was mentioned earlier. But green is Lucifer's color! No one would dare wear it except his "legal" representative: the presiding hierophant.
Green is his color first because it relates qabalistically [hidden meaning or message] to Venus. Venus, the "Morning Star," is sacred to him. Alchemically [medieval chemical philosophy; magical power or process of transmuting] , Lucifer is related to copper. This metal is corrupt within and beautiful without, just like him; and it turns green when it tarnishes. (Schnoebelen & Spencer, 1987, pgs.21-22, italics added, brackets added)
"A strange, darker note is added to this scenario when we backtrack and realize that a satanic symbolism has been applied to the fig-leaf apron by the writers of the very endowment ritual itself. Just seconds before the point in the narrative just described, Adam and Eve begin to recognize the true identity of Lucifer. Eve says, "Thou art Lucifer, he who was cast out of Father's presence for rebellion" (Sackett, p.28). (Decker, 1997, pg. 53)
"All this confirmed what I'd been told years before by my Druidic mentor. In fact, it confirmed the whole metaphysical trap Satan had laid for me. I had joined the Church not only because I believed the Mormon missionaries, but also because I believed it would lead me deeper into occult experience. For a year I had anticipated receiving my temple endowments. Now as I saw Lucifer with his priesthood apron--and as I received my own apron--I was convinced that Christianity reached its highest level of witchcraft in Mormonism. Jesus, I had been taught as a witch, was a Medium of the highest order, who worked miracles by magick. Now as I saw the priesthood of Lucifer transferred to Adam in the apron, I knew it was true." (Schnoebelen & Spencer, 1987, pgs. 22-23)

As you can see, the fabric of a silken, green, fig leaf adorned apron is woven deep within the occult of Satanic rituals and symbolism. Those Mormons who hold this little garment sacred, be afraid, very afraid. Satan is very pleased with you. If you value your spiritual well-being, burn your apron and renounce your ritualistic commitments you have made with Lucifer. Call out to God for forgivness and the Holy Spirit will fill you with Christs love, and peace will rest within your heart.

God Bless

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Please start with the month of February 2007 and read backwards. This is the most effective way to understand, in order, why I say what I do.

Handmaidens Creed

1.I believe in God the Father, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit as one God without beginning or end.
2.I believe the Bible to be the Holy Inspired word of God with full truth and righteousness. No other writing is.
3.I believe that the work of the Lord comes first. Before any temporal thing or person.
4.I believe that grace is a gift and Christ gives that gift freely to all who believe.
5.I believe that the beauty of a woman is contained inside of her and not by what she looks like on the outside.
6.I believe that marriage is sacred and represents the Godhead on earth; two are one just as three are one.
7.I believe that love is more powerful than any other power. Remember, God is love.
8.I believe that tithing is not a part of God's new covenant, free will offerings are. And that doesn't mean just money.
9.I believe that the Aaronic, Levitical, and Melchizedek priesthoods are abolished and Christs Holy Priesthood whom Christ is the "Great High Priest" is eternal.
10.I believe that every believer is a priest in the "Priesthood of Believers".
11.I believe that when two are one, nobody is to separate the one.
12.I believe that Christ is the only way to heaven.
13.I believe that our bodies are temples, not man made buildings.
14.I believe that liars make fools out of others and the liar hates the fool.
15.I believe that all believers are in authority to preach the gospel.
16.I believe that the word 'organization' to describe Christs body is evil and has no place with God.
17.I believe the Americas are not the land of Zion and Christ will return to His origonal land-Israel in the Middle East.
18.I believe that God has set out correct ways of worshiping Him, not man.
19.I believe in holding to the truths of the Bible and not mans understanding of it.
20.I believe that the world is full of evil and Satan can easily gain control over the minds of those who do not profess Christ of the Bible to be their only Messiah.
21.I believe that Saints are those who know the real Savior, Jesus Christ, of whom the Bible speaks of; not the jesus of a cult.