Overwhelmed

The eighth move went well. We got settled into a roomy townhouse just South of a very large airport. Convert got his workman's compensation and disability, and we all went on welfare. The church continued to get their 10%, and Convert and I kept our good standing in the church. Convert saw his doctor once a week in order to keep his workman's' comp. He started going to a community college, taking classes in heating, ventilation and air conditioning. I started a part time job to supplement the disability.
I came home from work one evening and the house was a mess and there were strangers sitting in my living room. Convert explained to me that this family, a man, woman and an infant, needed a place to stay for awhile. That place was my home. I didn't have a say in the matter, due to Convert being the Mormon authority in the family. To make things worse, he decided to start working on appliances in my kitchen (he'd pick up old appliances that people had thrown out).
By this time I was overwhelmed. Between the church duties, going to work, taking care of the children, Converts' so called inability to work, his going to school, his doctor's appointments, and these strangers living in my home... I had nothing left. I was exhausted. I needed some advice, some kind of comfort, a shoulder to cry on... something.
I thought back to when I was young. I was taught to go to the spiritual head of the family for guidance in all matters. Well, the spiritual head of our nucleus family was part of the problem.
I remember I went over to my parents home and sat down next to my oldest brother (the returned Mormon missionary). I gave him a short story of my situation, he advised me to go to the patriarch of the family. I got up off the couch and went to the dining room where my dad was sitting. I sat down next to him and explained what I was going through, and that I was stressed out over it all.
My dad looked at me and lovingly told me how he was well aware of the situation. He said he had been praying about what I needed to do in my case. I was attentively listening. He said I was to divorce my husband. He went on to tell me that I was to let him and my mom adopt my children. Last, I was to move back to Utah and forget I even had a marriage and two children. I felt violated.

4 comments:

Interested April 10, 2007 at 2:56 AM  

Violated, betrayed... I can't even come up with words strong enough to say what I would have felt. What a horrible thing for a father to say to his very troubled daughter.

The Sacred Sister April 11, 2007 at 6:11 PM  

Unbelieveable!! I can't fathom any father telling his daughter to sign over her rights, abandon her children and then basically "pretend" they don't exist.
And Convert... where in the world did he find these strangers that moved in? Were they LDS also? It's absurd, considering your own little family was struggling. What was his reason for doing this?
I look forward to reading your next post...
~Caryn :)

handmaiden April 14, 2007 at 6:39 PM  

Convert did what he wanted. It didn't matter what I said. The strangers were not LDS. Thanks for asking!

Ben November 25, 2007 at 11:30 PM  

Weird and very awkward situations here.... Very curious....

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