For Time and All Eternity

As I think back on my upbringing (childhood), I continue to realize that I was a devout Mormon. I did all, all the time. That same ambition carried over into my new marriage. I took hold of new church callings and I did all I knew to do as a wife and a new mother. The whole experience of being the perfect wife, mother, and church member was challenging.
Convert got his upgrade to an elder in the church and we were sealed "For Time and All Eternity" in the Washington DC, Mormon Temple. Our two young children were sealed with us. I worked hard to get to this stage. It wasn't easy. By the time Convert and I got to this point, Convert had quit his job three times. We moved four times, and during all this, I caught him rolling on the floor with my best friend. (Our first baby was only a month old when Convert decided to quit his government job and seek my best friends company. She was Mormon too. This precipitated the second move.)
I had to stay in the hospital a full month while pregnant with my first child. My cervix couldn't hold babies. Not only did I have problems carrying my child, I had to get over being anorexic. I was only 98lbs when Convert and I married. (Perfect body + perfect lifestyle = Perfect Mormon Woman.) The problems with my cervix necessitated a month long stay in the hospital. Needless to say, I got only one visit from my dear husband during my incarceration. I delivered my boy one week after my release from the hospital. My baby was born eight weeks premature. Our daughter, on the other hand, was full term, thanks to modern medicine.


Ben November 25, 2007 at 11:26 PM  

I am sorry that your husband was an awful person too. You deserve better!

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I spent a lot of time deciding if I should write this blog or not. I'm not a great writer and I'm not going to pretend to be. I need to share what I have learned and I might not make some people happy with what I am saying. This blog is a way for me to release the thoughts and feelings that come with knowing I grew up in the wrong religion. A healing process if you will.

How To Read This Blog

Please start with the month of February 2007 and read backwards. This is the most effective way to understand, in order, why I say what I do.

Handmaidens Creed

1.I believe in God the Father, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit as one God without beginning or end.
2.I believe the Bible to be the Holy Inspired word of God with full truth and righteousness. No other writing is.
3.I believe that the work of the Lord comes first. Before any temporal thing or person.
4.I believe that grace is a gift and Christ gives that gift freely to all who believe.
5.I believe that the beauty of a woman is contained inside of her and not by what she looks like on the outside.
6.I believe that marriage is sacred and represents the Godhead on earth; two are one just as three are one.
7.I believe that love is more powerful than any other power. Remember, God is love.
8.I believe that tithing is not a part of God's new covenant, free will offerings are. And that doesn't mean just money.
9.I believe that the Aaronic, Levitical, and Melchizedek priesthoods are abolished and Christs Holy Priesthood whom Christ is the "Great High Priest" is eternal.
10.I believe that every believer is a priest in the "Priesthood of Believers".
11.I believe that when two are one, nobody is to separate the one.
12.I believe that Christ is the only way to heaven.
13.I believe that our bodies are temples, not man made buildings.
14.I believe that liars make fools out of others and the liar hates the fool.
15.I believe that all believers are in authority to preach the gospel.
16.I believe that the word 'organization' to describe Christs body is evil and has no place with God.
17.I believe the Americas are not the land of Zion and Christ will return to His origonal land-Israel in the Middle East.
18.I believe that God has set out correct ways of worshiping Him, not man.
19.I believe in holding to the truths of the Bible and not mans understanding of it.
20.I believe that the world is full of evil and Satan can easily gain control over the minds of those who do not profess Christ of the Bible to be their only Messiah.
21.I believe that Saints are those who know the real Savior, Jesus Christ, of whom the Bible speaks of; not the jesus of a cult.