Get A Grip!

Now there is a title that might be a little confusing. Get a grip... Truth is, I lose my grip sometimes. I'm not talking about the grip of a hand, rather the grip of self control. I used to spend a lot of time crying and feeling bad about the things that I couldn't change. I had the feeling of being trapped and I couldn't see my way out. I would have good moments, but the bad experiences would over shadow the good experiences. The Mormon church had put such high expectations on me as a woman that I was stressed out all of the time. I thought that the feeling of being overwhelmed was just me. I used to think that I was slowly going nuts. It was a combination of values and expectations that both family and church put on me that made me feel as though I was going to burst at the seams.
Now that I'm out of the Mormon church, I still have difficulty with getting a grip (self control). I get too upset over things that I cannot change and the things that I think I need to do in my life. When it comes to my children, I get overly upset when I need to back off or refuse to help them out at times. My children are adults now and I'm a mother watching them grow on their own. (Hard reality check)
Sometimes the feeling of injustice gets the best of me. The control that my dad, Convert, the Mormon church, brain washing, my own stupidity, and circumstances beyond my control had on me, still haunt me to this day. I do lean on the Lord, but I don't lean on Him enough. I have moments when I feel as though God has abandoned me, yet that is far from the truth.
In 2 Corinthians 1:3 the apostle Paul tells us that our Lord Jesus Christ is the father of compassion and the God of all comfort. Paul goes on and says that Jesus comforts us in all our troubles. I know that Jesus Christ is always there for me and I know that He is the only one who can make my worries and troubled past just memories. He is also the only one that can help me through whatever it is I have to go through now.
It is my prayer that through God's love and wisdom, I will be able to look upon my hurtful memories and maintain my grip in the comfort of Jesus Christ. I also pray that I will someday be able to help others in similar situations lean on the true Jesus through the promises that Paul spoke of to the people of Corinth.


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I spent a lot of time deciding if I should write this blog or not. I'm not a great writer and I'm not going to pretend to be. I need to share what I have learned and I might not make some people happy with what I am saying. This blog is a way for me to release the thoughts and feelings that come with knowing I grew up in the wrong religion. A healing process if you will.

How To Read This Blog

Please start with the month of February 2007 and read backwards. This is the most effective way to understand, in order, why I say what I do.

Handmaidens Creed

1.I believe in God the Father, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit as one God without beginning or end.
2.I believe the Bible to be the Holy Inspired word of God with full truth and righteousness. No other writing is.
3.I believe that the work of the Lord comes first. Before any temporal thing or person.
4.I believe that grace is a gift and Christ gives that gift freely to all who believe.
5.I believe that the beauty of a woman is contained inside of her and not by what she looks like on the outside.
6.I believe that marriage is sacred and represents the Godhead on earth; two are one just as three are one.
7.I believe that love is more powerful than any other power. Remember, God is love.
8.I believe that tithing is not a part of God's new covenant, free will offerings are. And that doesn't mean just money.
9.I believe that the Aaronic, Levitical, and Melchizedek priesthoods are abolished and Christs Holy Priesthood whom Christ is the "Great High Priest" is eternal.
10.I believe that every believer is a priest in the "Priesthood of Believers".
11.I believe that when two are one, nobody is to separate the one.
12.I believe that Christ is the only way to heaven.
13.I believe that our bodies are temples, not man made buildings.
14.I believe that liars make fools out of others and the liar hates the fool.
15.I believe that all believers are in authority to preach the gospel.
16.I believe that the word 'organization' to describe Christs body is evil and has no place with God.
17.I believe the Americas are not the land of Zion and Christ will return to His origonal land-Israel in the Middle East.
18.I believe that God has set out correct ways of worshiping Him, not man.
19.I believe in holding to the truths of the Bible and not mans understanding of it.
20.I believe that the world is full of evil and Satan can easily gain control over the minds of those who do not profess Christ of the Bible to be their only Messiah.
21.I believe that Saints are those who know the real Savior, Jesus Christ, of whom the Bible speaks of; not the jesus of a cult.