Get A Grip!

Now there is a title that might be a little confusing. Get a grip... Truth is, I lose my grip sometimes. I'm not talking about the grip of a hand, rather the grip of self control. I used to spend a lot of time crying and feeling bad about the things that I couldn't change. I had the feeling of being trapped and I couldn't see my way out. I would have good moments, but the bad experiences would over shadow the good experiences. The Mormon church had put such high expectations on me as a woman that I was stressed out all of the time. I thought that the feeling of being overwhelmed was just me. I used to think that I was slowly going nuts. It was a combination of values and expectations that both family and church put on me that made me feel as though I was going to burst at the seams.
Now that I'm out of the Mormon church, I still have difficulty with getting a grip (self control). I get too upset over things that I cannot change and the things that I think I need to do in my life. When it comes to my children, I get overly upset when I need to back off or refuse to help them out at times. My children are adults now and I'm a mother watching them grow on their own. (Hard reality check)
Sometimes the feeling of injustice gets the best of me. The control that my dad, Convert, the Mormon church, brain washing, my own stupidity, and circumstances beyond my control had on me, still haunt me to this day. I do lean on the Lord, but I don't lean on Him enough. I have moments when I feel as though God has abandoned me, yet that is far from the truth.
In 2 Corinthians 1:3 the apostle Paul tells us that our Lord Jesus Christ is the father of compassion and the God of all comfort. Paul goes on and says that Jesus comforts us in all our troubles. I know that Jesus Christ is always there for me and I know that He is the only one who can make my worries and troubled past just memories. He is also the only one that can help me through whatever it is I have to go through now.
It is my prayer that through God's love and wisdom, I will be able to look upon my hurtful memories and maintain my grip in the comfort of Jesus Christ. I also pray that I will someday be able to help others in similar situations lean on the true Jesus through the promises that Paul spoke of to the people of Corinth.