Glass Bubble

During the time that I dated Convert, a lot changed. My conviction towards serving the church became weaker and weaker. I knew in my heart that the fate my dad had set out for me was due to the teachings of Mormon dogmatics. I was so confused about my role in the world and in society. I was never taught how take care of myself outside the confines of my parents house and the rule of the Mormon authority. Convert opened up a whole new world that was totally foreign to me, yet totally wondrous and exciting. My focus changed from the glass bubble of doing all I can do for the church and my parents, to the world outside where life was free and exhilarating, and that puts a crack in the glass bubble.
I stopped my church callings and I started going to the ward where Convert attended. I got to know the church members there. I also started working on Sundays. (Working on Sundays is a huge taboo in the eyes of the church.) As for me, I wanted to save up enough money to find a place of my own and be an adult for once. Most of the money I was making was going to my dad for rent, insurance, food, and whatever else he thought I needed to pay. I only made over $3.00 an hour. I think I had about forty bucks to spend on myself for the next two weeks. That money didn't go too far. I still had to put gas in the car so I could go back and forth to work and church, and I was still driving the sister missionaries around to their appointments. Plus, I had to pay tithing on the gross amount of my paycheck. I did manage to put $2.00 bi-weekly in a savings account.

7 comments:

Obi-Dave Kenobi March 29, 2007 at 7:48 PM  

I am actually starting to hang on your posts like a novel. :) I look forward to how this saga ends! I hope the posts do for you what mine do for me: keep me sane as I work through a lot of hard stuff, sometimes. Keep it coming.

Interested March 30, 2007 at 2:18 PM  

I second the motion. I can't wait to read your next chapter.

Ben November 25, 2007 at 11:20 PM  

It is sad to see that you saw service related to the Mormon Church as service to THAT church, and not as what it really was, which is service. Service is service. Service causes one to be selfless. Service to help anyone at anytime is good. You should know that by now.

Jennifer November 30, 2009 at 6:50 PM  

Girl, don't you ever let any negative things that are said on here ever make you stop telling your story. IT'S YOUR STORY! Not theirs. You keep on truckin' sister!!
Glad to call you my new friend!!

handmaiden December 1, 2009 at 6:01 PM  

Hey Jennifer,
Glad to have you around!!

beccaboo May 18, 2010 at 6:44 PM  

i am so intersetd in this, my best friend is moromon as well as some of my other friends. ive been to several church events, and everyones very welcoming, but it is very much like a cult.

handmaiden May 18, 2010 at 11:20 PM  

Beccaboo,
All of the activities in the Mormon church are intended to keep their followers in seclusion. The more outsiders attend those activities, the more deception is piled on to get more potential member, or should I say money givers and mental brainwashing. Smiles and eats don't get you into heaven. The whole lot are on a one way ticket to hell if they don't see that they are in a cult. Only Jesus Christ can save, by faith. That's it. Be very cautious about the activities. All members are taught to be a 'member missionary' first. A friend second.
God Bless,
handmaiden

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1.I believe in God the Father, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit as one God without beginning or end.
2.I believe the Bible to be the Holy Inspired word of God with full truth and righteousness. No other writing is.
3.I believe that the work of the Lord comes first. Before any temporal thing or person.
4.I believe that grace is a gift and Christ gives that gift freely to all who believe.
5.I believe that the beauty of a woman is contained inside of her and not by what she looks like on the outside.
6.I believe that marriage is sacred and represents the Godhead on earth; two are one just as three are one.
7.I believe that love is more powerful than any other power. Remember, God is love.
8.I believe that tithing is not a part of God's new covenant, free will offerings are. And that doesn't mean just money.
9.I believe that the Aaronic, Levitical, and Melchizedek priesthoods are abolished and Christs Holy Priesthood whom Christ is the "Great High Priest" is eternal.
10.I believe that every believer is a priest in the "Priesthood of Believers".
11.I believe that when two are one, nobody is to separate the one.
12.I believe that Christ is the only way to heaven.
13.I believe that our bodies are temples, not man made buildings.
14.I believe that liars make fools out of others and the liar hates the fool.
15.I believe that all believers are in authority to preach the gospel.
16.I believe that the word 'organization' to describe Christs body is evil and has no place with God.
17.I believe the Americas are not the land of Zion and Christ will return to His origonal land-Israel in the Middle East.
18.I believe that God has set out correct ways of worshiping Him, not man.
19.I believe in holding to the truths of the Bible and not mans understanding of it.
20.I believe that the world is full of evil and Satan can easily gain control over the minds of those who do not profess Christ of the Bible to be their only Messiah.
21.I believe that Saints are those who know the real Savior, Jesus Christ, of whom the Bible speaks of; not the jesus of a cult.