I never thought that the day would come when I wouldn't have to go to school. I graduated with honors, short of requiring me to walk on stage. I knew that if I didn't have that major "burp [or move from Utah to Michigan]" in my life, I would have graduated with a 4.0. I went to graduation, my parents were there, then they went home. Me, I went to dinner with my brother, his girlfriend, and my boyfriend. Yes, I had a Mormon boyfriend! Of course it didn't last long.... He moved to Utah the next day with his family. Ironic? I dropped him off at his home and I left him, sobbing my eyes out. To make things worse, it was pouring rain that night. I don't know which was more wet, the car or my lap.
That night my dad told me that he knew the relationship wouldn't last. He told me that the power of the priesthood gives him the ability to discern many, many things, and that includes what happens in my life. I didn't think much of it at the time. I believed him, as usual.
I sat up that night on my bed and hashed over and over the events of the last year and a half. I thought of how there must be a Mormon man out there for me that God has chosen, and I had to find him. I was at the end of an era and now I was not considered young anymore. I didn't know really what to do with my life at this point. I had no prospect of marriage and raising a family. I kept thinking that that is what I'm to do. The church and my parents had trained me to be the best Mormon female they could possibly make me be. Marriage and having children was what I was trained in. That's it.
My mind shifted because my sister was snoring and I was tired. Instead of turning out my bedside light, I reached for my little pink box that contained stationary and addresses. These weren't just any addresses, they were addresses of Mormon missionaries that I wrote to all the time. I think I wrote to six or seven missionary men at a time. I grabbed paper and pen and wrote to one of the young men that I was in communication with. After that, I turned out the light and drifted off to sleep while thinking, I don't have to go back to high school ever again.


About Me

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I spent a lot of time deciding if I should write this blog or not. I'm not a great writer and I'm not going to pretend to be. I need to share what I have learned and I might not make some people happy with what I am saying. This blog is a way for me to release the thoughts and feelings that come with knowing I grew up in the wrong religion. A healing process if you will.

How To Read This Blog

Please start with the month of February 2007 and read backwards. This is the most effective way to understand, in order, why I say what I do.

Handmaidens Creed

1.I believe in God the Father, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit as one God without beginning or end.
2.I believe the Bible to be the Holy Inspired word of God with full truth and righteousness. No other writing is.
3.I believe that the work of the Lord comes first. Before any temporal thing or person.
4.I believe that grace is a gift and Christ gives that gift freely to all who believe.
5.I believe that the beauty of a woman is contained inside of her and not by what she looks like on the outside.
6.I believe that marriage is sacred and represents the Godhead on earth; two are one just as three are one.
7.I believe that love is more powerful than any other power. Remember, God is love.
8.I believe that tithing is not a part of God's new covenant, free will offerings are. And that doesn't mean just money.
9.I believe that the Aaronic, Levitical, and Melchizedek priesthoods are abolished and Christs Holy Priesthood whom Christ is the "Great High Priest" is eternal.
10.I believe that every believer is a priest in the "Priesthood of Believers".
11.I believe that when two are one, nobody is to separate the one.
12.I believe that Christ is the only way to heaven.
13.I believe that our bodies are temples, not man made buildings.
14.I believe that liars make fools out of others and the liar hates the fool.
15.I believe that all believers are in authority to preach the gospel.
16.I believe that the word 'organization' to describe Christs body is evil and has no place with God.
17.I believe the Americas are not the land of Zion and Christ will return to His origonal land-Israel in the Middle East.
18.I believe that God has set out correct ways of worshiping Him, not man.
19.I believe in holding to the truths of the Bible and not mans understanding of it.
20.I believe that the world is full of evil and Satan can easily gain control over the minds of those who do not profess Christ of the Bible to be their only Messiah.
21.I believe that Saints are those who know the real Savior, Jesus Christ, of whom the Bible speaks of; not the jesus of a cult.