I was introduced to the little booklet that is pictured below by a Christian man, who had a family member living at the nursing home that I was working at. He gave me a copy of this booklet that he had written and I read it several times. I was able to identify with what it was saying. It was hard, at first, for me to believe, or accept, the idea that a little book with few words could touch my heart. The beliefs that I was taught through Mormonism were never able to speak to me as the words in this little booklet could. The printed words spoke to me personally. It said that there was love, and truth, and that I don't have to DO anything to be with God. All I have to do is know that it is not by my own strength that I can get to heaven, but by believing in a Savior, and through Him I would be able to go to heaven to be with God. The booklet helped me see the name 'Jesus' in a whole new perspective. The booklet also said that God is love, and that's what I had been looking for. For a long time I've searched for someone to love me without having any conditions put on me. I needed to be accepted by somebody for who I am, not for what I can, or must, do. I saw for the first time after all these years, that I had been searching for the love of a true God.
This same Christian man introduced me to a bible that wasn't printed by the Mormon Church. He showed me passages in the bible that were able to speak to my heart. He (I'm gonna call him Christian) loaned me his personal bible to read. [I had a Mormon bible, it looked like Christian's bible, but my bible was written by Joseph Smith, who changed a few things in his bible.] I read passages of scripture in different areas of the bible, and they seemed to talk to only me. I didn't feel as though I was being told to do this or that, or be cast into "outer darkness". I felt a peace inside while I read the scriptures.
I spent more and more time with Christian. He explained a lot of aspects of belief, love, truth, grace, Jesus, and the list goes on. I felt as though I was waking up from a horrible dream (my life), and I was introduced to a huge dose of something real.
I also needed Christian to help me understand the 'King James' style of writing. I grew up with that particular style of scripture, because Joseph Smith used 'King James' style of writing in all of his works. However, I always had a hard time understanding most of what was written. Christian helped me pick out a bible that was written in the 'NIV' translation. I was able to understand more clearly what the bible, and God, was saying to me. The Mormon church does not recognize any translation other than the 'King James Version', and that version must be from Joseph Smith. I remember as a teenager seeing Christian book stores in Detroit and thinking how those stores don't have the right scriptures for sale. I never considered Christian book stores to have anything for me. All the books I read came from the Deseret Book Company in Salt Lake City, UT.
For the first time in my life I realized, that it doesn't matter how much doing I do in this life, it will never get me into heaven. I found out that good works will never get rid of the bad deeds. Jesus Christ is the only one that can forgive sins. Through belief and faith in the saving grace of Jesus and trusting in Him only, will I get to heaven.
Christian
Monday, May 7, 2007
3 comments:
Amen. ('Nuff said.) :) :)
I haven't read the booklet you mentioned in your post, but I have read another booklet entitled: "How Good Is Good Enough?" By Andy Stanley (a Christian author) and it was a key stepping stone for me on the path that ultimately led me out of the LDS church.
It was an extremely effective wake-up call for me to realize that I could stop worrying about all the "works" the LDS church told me I needed to do to earn my way to heaven.
I could finally stop killing myself trying to please God.
Good luck to you on your quest!
The Holy Spirit kindled new life in your heart and brought Christian into your life at the same time in order that you would be made a new Creature in Christ, the old self being put to death. May God be glorified!
Post a Comment