One summer day, Christian sat me down and explained to me that I needed to call Convert. He went on to say that I needed to find out if Convert wanted me to get back with him and make the marriage work again. This would have been the third try at our marriage. He divorced me once in 1989 and again in 1995. I was quite surprised to hear that Christian felt that I needed to do such a thing, especially after all of the misery that Convert had put me and my kids through. Christian further explained to me that as a 'Christian', divorce is a very serious act for a couple to do. He went on to help me see that God does not want a couple to divorce, except in the case of adultery which Convert had been doing practically on a regular basis since we had been married. In other words, I had scriptural grounds to end the marriage, but was too much in a state of denial to myself about Converts obvious activities and too naive due to Mormon brainwashing to know the difference... I read in the bible where this subject is expounded on and I understood Christian's rational. Convert had many encounters of adultery and I wouldn't have been able to count them on both hands.
I complied with Christian and called Convert (a very hard thing for me to do.) I asked Convert if he would take me back and he said, "NO". It was a total relief to hear that one little word. I couldn't bear the thought of going back to Converts side. I couldn't have done it. My worst nightmare would have been to have to go back to Convert and be under his 'Authority'. It would have forced me back into Mormonism and his promiscuous, unquestioned authority. I would have had no choice.
I told Christian what Converts answer to the question was over the phone while he also, attentively listened to see what the response was. He nodded and that told me that the issue of me going back to Convert was done. I spent the next few days after talking with Convert, thankful to God, yet physically shaking. I was shaking because I knew, after reading, that the bible instructs couples to stay together. In 1 Corinthians 7:12-16 states that the believer is not to leave the unbeliever, but if the unbeliever leaves, let him do so. It would have been the death of me to return to Convert.
The Call
Saturday, May 26, 2007
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