The Call

One summer day, Christian sat me down and explained to me that I needed to call Convert. He went on to say that I needed to find out if Convert wanted me to get back with him and make the marriage work again. This would have been the third try at our marriage. He divorced me once in 1989 and again in 1995. I was quite surprised to hear that Christian felt that I needed to do such a thing, especially after all of the misery that Convert had put me and my kids through. Christian further explained to me that as a 'Christian', divorce is a very serious act for a couple to do. He went on to help me see that God does not want a couple to divorce, except in the case of adultery which Convert had been doing practically on a regular basis since we had been married. In other words, I had scriptural grounds to end the marriage, but was too much in a state of denial to myself about Converts obvious activities and too naive due to Mormon brainwashing to know the difference... I read in the bible where this subject is expounded on and I understood Christian's rational. Convert had many encounters of adultery and I wouldn't have been able to count them on both hands.
I complied with Christian and called Convert (a very hard thing for me to do.) I asked Convert if he would take me back and he said, "NO". It was a total relief to hear that one little word. I couldn't bear the thought of going back to Converts side. I couldn't have done it. My worst nightmare would have been to have to go back to Convert and be under his 'Authority'. It would have forced me back into Mormonism and his promiscuous, unquestioned authority. I would have had no choice.
I told Christian what Converts answer to the question was over the phone while he also, attentively listened to see what the response was. He nodded and that told me that the issue of me going back to Convert was done. I spent the next few days after talking with Convert, thankful to God, yet physically shaking. I was shaking because I knew, after reading, that the bible instructs couples to stay together. In 1 Corinthians 7:12-16 states that the believer is not to leave the unbeliever, but if the unbeliever leaves, let him do so. It would have been the death of me to return to Convert.


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I spent a lot of time deciding if I should write this blog or not. I'm not a great writer and I'm not going to pretend to be. I need to share what I have learned and I might not make some people happy with what I am saying. This blog is a way for me to release the thoughts and feelings that come with knowing I grew up in the wrong religion. A healing process if you will.

How To Read This Blog

Please start with the month of February 2007 and read backwards. This is the most effective way to understand, in order, why I say what I do.

Handmaidens Creed

1.I believe in God the Father, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit as one God without beginning or end.
2.I believe the Bible to be the Holy Inspired word of God with full truth and righteousness. No other writing is.
3.I believe that the work of the Lord comes first. Before any temporal thing or person.
4.I believe that grace is a gift and Christ gives that gift freely to all who believe.
5.I believe that the beauty of a woman is contained inside of her and not by what she looks like on the outside.
6.I believe that marriage is sacred and represents the Godhead on earth; two are one just as three are one.
7.I believe that love is more powerful than any other power. Remember, God is love.
8.I believe that tithing is not a part of God's new covenant, free will offerings are. And that doesn't mean just money.
9.I believe that the Aaronic, Levitical, and Melchizedek priesthoods are abolished and Christs Holy Priesthood whom Christ is the "Great High Priest" is eternal.
10.I believe that every believer is a priest in the "Priesthood of Believers".
11.I believe that when two are one, nobody is to separate the one.
12.I believe that Christ is the only way to heaven.
13.I believe that our bodies are temples, not man made buildings.
14.I believe that liars make fools out of others and the liar hates the fool.
15.I believe that all believers are in authority to preach the gospel.
16.I believe that the word 'organization' to describe Christs body is evil and has no place with God.
17.I believe the Americas are not the land of Zion and Christ will return to His origonal land-Israel in the Middle East.
18.I believe that God has set out correct ways of worshiping Him, not man.
19.I believe in holding to the truths of the Bible and not mans understanding of it.
20.I believe that the world is full of evil and Satan can easily gain control over the minds of those who do not profess Christ of the Bible to be their only Messiah.
21.I believe that Saints are those who know the real Savior, Jesus Christ, of whom the Bible speaks of; not the jesus of a cult.